i feel fat and worthless. like all the time. i dont want to go to school because everyone is really skinny at my school and i always feel fat. its the school that the book and movie "mean girls" is based off of and i just cant go back there for another 2 years. i want to be in college but surviving these next two years will be hard. sports make it go by so much faster so i guess i will just swim ALL year round to try to pass the time. when im exhausted i dont have as much tim to be alone and dpressed. the endorphins make it better. i HATE school tho. HATE it. i just feel like such an obese loser. i hate myself.