The long and the short of it is that, through my own stupidity and bad luck, I have now developed visual snow, along with the existing tinnitus. It means that I see black and white static over everything and cant see darkness anymore. It is incurable and can also lead to depersonalisation and derealisation. At the same time I lost more hearing and developed more tinnitus. I now have eight loud tinnitus noises in my head and my vision is full of static. Things keep getting worse and I no longer have any hope at all. Im not sure why Im writing this. Im not by nature suicidal. In fact, Ive always valued life with its ups and downs. But now all I have is pain and fear of that pain getting worse and worse until I go off my head. People should hang onto life, as things will get better for most. But my condition wont and it can onloy get worse. Adn I dont have th strength to keep trying.