This is going to sound really screwed up and people are probably going to think I'm joking but do you ever think your future can be revealed to you... When I was going through puberty I had some really strange dreams, dreams that showed me about my life, how I was going to live it and how I was going to end up. For example I dreamt that the first girl I went out with would kill herself, so for years I didn't go out with anyone, and when I did she killed herself. I'm not saying this is anything supernatural it's what psychologists call a self fulfilling prophecy I guess. But I know I won't get married, and I know I won't have kids and I know how I'll kill myself and I don't want my life to turn out like this but I can't stop it. Those stupid dreams I had as a kid are my destiny. I'd like to think someone else has felt this way but I just suspect I'm more screwed up than I can imagine.