I've known for a while to expect my 'father' and 'brother'. Legally they hold those names, but to me they're anything but. No one on that side of my 'family' have EVER cared or even tried to get to know me!!! My 'brother' doesn't want anything to do with me, and although for years and years I longed for a relationship with him (he's 6yrs my senior) he's NEVER cared to be a part of my life, so about 1.5yrs ago I let go of the hope I had held for so long. That's when I both realized and accepted it was NEVER going to happen. Now I just figure if he doesn't want anything to do with me why should I want anything to do with him? Ya know? He doesn't even deserve to wear the title of brother in my book cuz he's never actually been one!!!! Well, our 'father' (who's literally never been there for me, either) is moving 3/4 of the way across the country to live with his son (my 'brother'), and my 'father' wants to drop off stuff for me (that I don't even want!) and to take my kids and I out to dinner. They'll be here a couple days then will be off again. This is just the stop along the way. I'm absolutely dreading the idea of seeing them!!!! I don't know how to prepare for this!! I'm fearful I'm gonna pop off (verbally) on both of them while they're here. My pdoc has prescribed a separate anxiety med I can take while they're here, but I'm not sure that's gonna be enough. I've put up with their abuse via neglect my entire life which is especially brutal given I was adopted. Nothing like being chosen yet not accepted!!!! It's a contradiction in and of itself. I'm trying not to stress about this, but I totally am. I'm really even dreading the thought of them being here. I'd tell them to stay away, but I haven't told them where I stand on all this, but I also know for a fact it'd totally go over their heads and they won't care anyways. And after all, legally they are my 'family'. What a joke!!!