I'm 25 years old and recently moved back with my father after living on my own from the age of 17 onward. Some background, my father kicked me out of the house when I was 17. Said the most fucked up things you could imagine to me and I had to move into a halfway house for teenagers. I was caught smoking marijuana with a girl at the halfway house and they kicked me out. I was unable to finish my senior year of highschool because I didn't have a place to live... after going on my own from age 17-19 (lived with a girlfriend for a time, lived with random strangers sleeping on floors...) my father let me move back in with him. I had worked for 1 year then began to experience medical issues, was hospitalized etc and was eventually placed on SSI because my father forced me into homelessness rather than help his still teenage son...(he was financially well off as well, he actually sold his million dollar home and bought a new home with his wife while I was in the hospital) after I was placed on SSI and with my general apathy for life (I don't know why I hadn't just killed myself sooner. I've gone 6 years in total hopelessness with all the reasons to end my life and I feel only worse now) I lived like a hermit in extreme sickness and poverty (I was vomiting after most meals because of my diseased gall bladder) until I was 24 and discovered this was the cause of my extreme sickness and erratic behavior. I moved back in with him after I had my surgery. Anyways he's been giving me full bottles of pain killers now and he knows that I have problems with addiction. I had a leather strap that I had prepared in the area I have decided to kill myself at and I noticed that he had wrapped it in a noose. My father is an extreme sociopath that has only devastated my shitty meaningless life so I've thought he should die before I go out. He has a son with his (ex)wife as well.