i cry out desperately for help you come and take my hand and make me to hold on tight im feeling better now you are feeling worse i wish i could make it right we come on in pain we all need help but some of us have to give othewise the community would break and shatter none of us would be able to live. i want to give you that the support and help the same support you gave to me. But i cant seem to connect, to help, to listen im creating more pain it seems... its shaken me so much i realise how useless i am how little i can offer help if you lose your live i cant wonder but think is it my fault that you fell? could i have done more? could i have said something? did i make more pain for you? you didnt deserve this and when you were in need i wasnt able to come through.