I thought I was doing not to bad recently. Haven't really has much thoughts of suicide or self harming. Last week I was working and in a high rise block of flat. I went onto a balcony to lock the door on the 20th floor. I had this overwhelming urge to jump after looking down. I didn't even feel scared of worried and didn't even think of the consequences of it. Now the feelings are all back again. My GP thinks I am getting better but I disagree. Has anyone else had this feeling of getting better then something out of the blue triggering it?