Just wondering when is it the best time to reveal to my girlfriend I'm actually manically depressed and my moods change rather frequently for no reason. I can conceal my pain quite well on the face of things but sooner or later once I have to discuss my childhood or previous relationship failings I will evoke a barrier in my head which keeps me from breaking down. I don't want to lapse and have another melt down because I truly love this person and I know she'd understand I just wish she wouldn't have to in all fairness. If I just had another person I could discuss all this with face to face I guess I'd be fine but I'm losing allies by the day. Even my pet dog snaps at me when I enter my front door much possibly due to the extensive weight loss gym routine I've set myself to keep my mind focused and off pressing matters like the above. If one thing is for certain I will continue living a lie and pretend to be happy by playing the joker in the pack if I have to but deep down I don't want to anymore. I really need a father's advice or words of wisdom from a wise head but I just don't know who to turn too. My Mum has done no wrong but she doesn't seem to care for my pain, she believes the death of her elderly 80 something father in the 80's is more current then the pressing matters that have held me back for so long. She claims my Uncle hated my Dad and even gave me his name yet can I speak to him at the drop of a hat? Of course not. I refer to him as a Messiah because everybody in her Family paints a pretty picture of him yet I've never been witness to any of his saviour acts of mankind. Whilst my depression has entered a hibernate state I know it will one day return and maybe even finish me off for good despite the love from my girlfriend I fear may not be enough for me sadly.