I'm scared. My doctors want me to go through ECT. I've had it before but i lost 2 years of my life. They say now they can adjust how its done. My friends and family said i was like a zombie for the longest time after treatments. However, I have a few friends who think that it would be beneficial because of how severe my depression is. They say they can see a huge change in me lately for the worse. I agree that something needs to be done. My depression is pretty bad right now. I'm not thinking clearly, i'm sleeping too much, and my anxiety it through the roof. I'm having suicidal thoughts. I thought I was at peace about his treatment but I guess not. Has anyone had ECT lately? Did it help? They want to do it outpatient as of my last visit with my psychiatrist 2 weeks ago but after this week it will probably be changed to inpatient. Besides I have no driver and no one to stay with me 24 hours after each procedure. On top of everything i have 2 family members in the hospital. One just had open heart surgery and the other their appendix removed. There have been complications with both. AAHHHHH! My life is falling apart. I'm afraid to go into the hospital. I've been admitted on numerous occasions. Plus i don't know what mom would do. She's sick and i take care of her.