Hi All, I am 24, male, from the UK. Currently I have so much going for me as I am off to university this year to study Computer Science. I am looking forward to it. The problem thats eating away at the moment is anxiety. I have it really bad, to the extent where I am scared I am going to die. Usually I will check my pulse various times a day or check that my eyes are ok and that I am not going blind. My anxiety sometimes stops me traveling also. Recently I have been getting suicidle over it. I keep thinking to myself "If i buy a gun and shoot myself it will be over so quickly and no more worry". I really feel like this at the moment. In the past I have been through a lot and have been homeless before. In the past I used to cut the tops of my wrists to get the feel for pain, and once I cut real deep. I also had an eating disorder and used to force myself to be sick every time I ate. Life just does my head in at the moment. I am sick of the anxiety. Its causing so many problems.