I haven't posted here before. Im 'new' I guess. I felt like I wanted to post somewhere where no-one knew me so here I am. I know that there is someone on this site that feels the same way I do and it is so nice not to feel alone. My friends say that they understand but they dont. This darkness inside of me is all I can think about. I can't spend time with my friends anymore because I can feel it all around me. I have spent the last sunny days in jumpers to hide my arms. They are covered in scars. I wish I had the courage to walk around with them out so people knew how I was feeling on the inside. I am so bored of hiding this. I tried to commit suicide last Sunday. My friend helped me. I didn't want to die. I know that now. But I cannot do this anymore. I don't know how to be me. I don't see any future in my life. I only see depression and it is killing me. Im going to a new phycistrist tomorrow. For more conversations that will lead to fucking nowhere. I wish I could escape.