I'm fed up of all the fucking appointments with all the different people yet they all say the same thing when they dont even understand what it is like to feel like I do. They take the piss, ruining my fucking day with their stupid words making me feel even worse than I do. Nothing is going to get better, I know that but when will they realise it? Because its about time they did. My life is always going to be this way whilst I am alive. I will spend my life in and out of psychiatric hospitals - been told that one already. I wont be able to live like others my age, because I am fucked in the head, because I am mentally ill with stuff that can't be cured. So screw all the appointments and bring on my date. Cant wait for the relief. And when that day comes that is it, no more pain and no more suffering. No more people saying the same old shit, telling me that they are trying to understand when they are bloody well not.