fed up

Discussion in 'Let it all out...' started by resistance, Nov 4, 2006.

  1. resistance

    resistance Staff Alumni

    fed up of parents
    fed up of 'friends'
    fed up of hurting
    fed up of feeling mad, anxious and hopeless which also leads to...
    fed up of feeling weak and unable to control my urges of self harm.
    fed up of being alone
    fed up of crying myself to sleep almost everynight
    fed up of being ignored
    fed up of waking up everyday
    fed up of breathing
    fed up of being here

    fed up, fed up, fed up.............................. just fed up.
     
  2. resistance

    resistance Staff Alumni

    but whatever it's not like it matters. Yesterday I thought my mum wanted me out of her life but little did i know her epilepsy is getting worse and is having more seizures so the doctor has given her more 'antieptic' medication to try and calm her fits and now she isn't allowed outside on her own which means i can't meet her in town which also means my dad has an excuse to be nasty.. today i went up to her house for a few hours and i came home and my dad said, 2since you come home you've been disagreeing with everything i said". which isn't true but i didn't say it wasn't because that would start him off again... for fucks sake.. i am fed up with EVERYTHING. Today i discovered a new method of self harm which doesn't invole cutting but it sure as hell hurts and marks but hopefully won't scar. Probably will but my body can do what the heck it wants to. i am past caring.
     
  3. wienerman

    wienerman Guest

    please dont do this to yourself, we all care for you, even though you think that we dont. :hug::hug::hug:
     
  4. resistance

    resistance Staff Alumni

    I'll be ok, it's just been a tough week or so and things have got on top of me.. thanks hun :hug: