I am supposed to be on leave from here as of today but I dont know if I will be able to cope. I was so excited to see my nan and my fiance today, but I feel worse than ever. My gp wont do me a note to say I am fit to carry on my nursing course. My fiance thinks I am selfish cos I have a nice life but still want to kill myself. Oh god I want to die so badly. I can see the end of this week being my time. I am so sad and so tired of fighting. I have well and truely had enough.