why am i such a piece of shit ? why does everyone excel at life more than me? why am i always getting betrayed ? I am a piece of fucking shit that can't do anything right . fucking no job , stuck with some 500 dollar fine that i can't fucking afford to pay.I feel like crap , no lady in my life , all my friends are doing well , in college if not then they are working and have cars and ladies in their life to comfort them and to bang their brains out . Me I have shit . Can't go to college because i have no way to pay for it. I guess i could try and get grant money but don't know if they will actually give it to me since i screwed around the first half of H.S. don't really have any friends that i can hang out with IRL ,because they are busy with work or school or out and about with other friends or their old lady . Instead all i get is : betrayal by friends ,no ladies in my life . not once , no life / social life , poor fucking family , family that ask me for money since they can't handle their own money because they got into so much debt they can't get out of it . means no money for me to save for college , no money to buy a car , no money to ask a lady out IF she actually says yes . just shit. lots of Bad vibes and shit life and no friends that just betray me and that don't bother with me anymore.