Feel like im only a use to anyone else, not a friend or an asset. If i have no use i am to be thrown aside. I feel alone, and misunderstood, if they even try to understand at all. I wanna Die, i wanna kill myself, i have my method right here, and i want to use it so bad. And i want to cut, i want< edit moderator total eclipse triggering >, but i cannot or she will see, and i hate how she only cares about how it looks on me and not why i do it. Just a fucking pawn to make the family look good, and they hate me cuz i wont play the fucking part im supposed to... i guess thats how it is with all of them, maybe thats why they all hate me. and therefore there is no use for me to go on. If im not a person and only a pawn, the best choice would be to kill myself.