I honestly think i might break any minute and commit suicide. i am so anxious and feel very violent. i feel very bad and there are like shots of pain running through my entire body, but i think it has to do with my feelings. i'm trying to calm down, dont know what to do, have absolutely noone to talk to. i cant take it, why noone cares about me. all i can see is pain, and it isnt fair for me to punished in the afterlife because of the shit i've been through. f*** F*** F***. I'm done. dont know, just dont even know, why the hell people treat me this way. tell them to f*** off, i dont have any friends or anyone to reach out to. i'm done being on the internet and real life, like the flash flood, and clear pannel vortex. i dont know what the hell i'm doing. why i am so bad. why do they hurt me. i have bad visions. kill me. i try not to mention all of the methods and visions in my head. but i dont know. hurt me. the world feels bad and scary. i feel a lot of pressure in my chest. i'm sorry. i try to keep it together.