I have to do this. <Mod Edit - Acy - inappropriate> I am going to (methods). It's not death or hurt am scared of ...it's not doing it properly and ending up a bigger burden than I am now . My fiance has destroyed me and I see no future everyday the thoughts get louder and louder . I just don't get why I gave him my all I put him before everyone and he done this to me . I sincerely cannot go on .