i've had multiple OD's and been hospitalized mutliple times, i get therapy, go to groups, try to do things that are suposed to make me feel better, and in the end i always end up with a bottle of pills. right now my therapyst had me keep all my meds at my parents house with a weekly pill box at my home because of a recent attempt in which i simply fell asleep for a good amount of time. i've been in a coma once and have had multiple attempts that not many people other than my doctors know about. i've been getting treated for severe depression and social anxiety for 3 years now and i just dont see the point if i always end up back in the same place i started. what kind of worries me is the long term effect of all of these overdoses or that one of these attempts will be sucessful one of these days. does anyone have this problem? i just dont feel like it is normal for me to keep doing this over and over.