Three years ago I had a great job in IT until all the mental crap raised it's ugly head. I haven't been able to work and am applying for disability. I don't know how the hell I got from point A to point B. I used to be cheerful, happy, and outgoing. Now I'm bitter, angry, and hate myself for becoming so pathetic. It's Labor Day and it reminds me of all my high paying jobs I've had, all my friends (who have now deserted me), and just feeling like I had a purpose and goals. Now I see no light at the end of this tunnel. Every day I watch my "survival money" go down the drain. I'm even afraid to turn my thermostat under 80 degrees because of the huge A/C bills. I hate myself so much I wish I had the courage to end it all and get out of this living hell!