I just feel like its not worth fighting for...like I am not worth fighting for...just found out i have cancer in my lung....stressed out, can't work because dr. hasn't released me to go back. If I don't work I cant pay my insurance and without insurance, I can't get treatment....on top of all this...my boyfriend of a year, decided today was the day to tell me that he wanted to break up. I was surprised and hurt, asked him why and he said because he didn't want to put himself and his children, through watching me sick and maybe die...what kind of person does that? I moved in with him a year ago, I sold all my stuff, spent the money on fixing up his house, got my inheritance from my father's death (from cancer---mom died of cancer too) and used it to help with bills here, buying christmas presents for kids, its GONE...this was all last year, so I know he didn't just use me for the money. But I make just a little over minimum wage, half of that is taken for child support (my exhusband had custody) so I bring home barely 300 every two weeks...I can't live on that alone. I had a new truck when I moved in here, but he convinced me it was not "family friendly" and he convinced me to trade it for a car....a month ago the motor went out on the car...I work 30 miles from where I currently live, and my transportation was his car....I am screwed...I love him so much, I don't want to live with out him, but I could do it...if that was all I was dealing with....but with everything stacking on top of each other, I am at my breaking point....I can't take it anymore. I have never attempted suicide...and really don't know that I would have the guts to do it anyway...but the thought has crossed my mind at least 100 times today...it would be so easier....i don't have anything to lose....I know it is selfish...but the pain is unbearable...I am scared and alone, I can't talk to my friends about this...they wouldnt understand...I just need some help.