So... I am 24. Ever since I hit it, I'm no longer 2 years away from being 21, and in my mind therefore, no longer a young adult. I have not begun any of my goals and am relying on family Christmas money (which I'm lucky to still get) and stimulus money to afford my first apartment, where I plan to live while working a full time job and attending some school. Ever since I hit my current age, I feel really messed up like I have wasted over 5 years and all that I have gotten out of it is 2 failed attempts at success. Both were at trying to do something small and ease slowly into a successful position, both times I felt overwhelmed. Therefore, I feel like in the future I should really give my all into something that'll take up a significant amount of my time, that way sleeping and avoiding doesn't become a desirable alternative.
After a later encounter with the police where I could have died, all because I had a delusion that something I owned counted as a weapon and I felt like I had to tell someone, I have felt like I really hit rock bottom.
None of my family is supportive of my decision to move where I want to move to, and only one family member is supportive of my decision to live off benefits. I really feel like I have been blessed with benefits and can use them as a way to get away somewhere far away from where I currently live and have lived all my life. Too many connections that are holding me back...
Anyway though, does anyone else struggle with this massive guilt for having not accomplished anything for a certain amount of time? I guess my less-than-a-month of college and 2 months of work count as something, it's just not comparable to the feeling of graduating a year of high school.
After a later encounter with the police where I could have died, all because I had a delusion that something I owned counted as a weapon and I felt like I had to tell someone, I have felt like I really hit rock bottom.
None of my family is supportive of my decision to move where I want to move to, and only one family member is supportive of my decision to live off benefits. I really feel like I have been blessed with benefits and can use them as a way to get away somewhere far away from where I currently live and have lived all my life. Too many connections that are holding me back...
Anyway though, does anyone else struggle with this massive guilt for having not accomplished anything for a certain amount of time? I guess my less-than-a-month of college and 2 months of work count as something, it's just not comparable to the feeling of graduating a year of high school.