I feel like leaving SF as I feel totally useless. Someone that I have been spending a lot of time with just OD so it seems instead of helping I have made matters worse and I feel like I will just cause more damage if I stay. It is hard on two levels. One I want very much to help others deal with the pain that has haunt me too. Two I need this place for support but if I have nothing to give I feel like I don't belong. I don't know what to do....I don't know the status of the member at this point and I am in shock and am numb-I feel responsible and that my efforts backfired and he suffered. I prayed for the right answers and the right words but seems I fucked even this up. I don't know what to do. I am not looking for people to tell me to stay I am looking to understand this situation and what I can do to be of help.