feel like ...

[White Dove]

nothing right now....

I am alone.. People will say they will never leave you but they do

they will say they love you but they dont

if i die tonight would it matter??

why is it that when you need them, truly need them they leave you when you are really down ??

doesnt matter. i dont matter.. i know whats going on...

it doesnt take a genious to figure it out.

sorry... everyone im sorry.. my presence here is no more..

never meant any harm.. hurting wanted it to stop or ease.. wanted to be accepted for who i am regardless of my stupid life or problems, wanted a friend.. doesnt matter i push them away like always..

im sorry for coming here and posting and sorry for hurting others..

im worthless and pathic i know that now..

i meant no harm , no harm to anyone and if ive hurt you im sorry.

 

[Esmeralda]

It would matter to me :cry:

 

[White Dove]

It would matter to me :cry:

I know but thats the way i feel right now.

dont know if its the cancer pain or just emotional pain because of the trial this week that reminded me of my cousin...

 

[Lead Savior]

It would matter to me as well, if only because you PM'd me with a greeting as soon as I joined the forum.


I have often wished during my time of depression that I could take with me the cancer of another person when I decide to end my own life. I feel, when at my worst and most self-hating, as though I have taken for granted all that has been given to me: so many opportunities, close friends and good health.

I have never known anyone with cancer, you are now the closest person. If I could take yours with me if/when I decide to leave, I would do it, simply on the chance that it may turn you around.