First I would like to ask a silly question. Whats normal? Because you know what? In my twenty nine--yes only twenty nine years of living I have found that the things that happen to people on this site happen to all types, and ages. So I would say that you are normal, and your behavior is normal. Others just repress it until they snap, or they ignore it and suffer until they die of old age by becoming addicted to something.
There is an end to all suffering and it is called knowledge. Evey question in the world has and answer. I have found them, and it helped me learn how to stop the past sufferings in my life, and helps me handle to overcome the ones that come into my life. I got my knowledge from leaving my old ways behind, and praying for enlightenment. I was lead to the only book that supplied the answers that I have found after searching a lifetime, and I read until I was done. I get life, myself, and everything. I know all the answers to my questions and then some. I pray you seek the answers someday, because I know you'll find them. Blessings..