no matter how i feel, i try to read all the forums and i feel selfish and weak that others are in more pain and it makes me feel bad. how dare i hurt or contemplate the end, when others have gone through worse...i just feel a total lame ass. i am sorry to everyone that has suffered so badly, i dont wish to undermine your pain, and i hope i can contine to support you, but please forgive me my weakness.
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