I just feel so alone right now.
Like everyone's leaving me.
I know that's silly.
I know that they're getting on with their own lives because their young and just because I don't have any hope for MY future, doesn't mean everyone else's life stands still...
But my best friend has just moved to Florida for 8 months (I live in Scotland). I've known her for 12 years, and have never gone so long without seeing her before. I'm going to miss her so much. We said our goodbyes last night and I've just been crying non-stop since. And no one else understands. They say I should be happy for her. And I am. She was given an amazing opportunity and she took it, but I just miss her, that's all...
Is that allowed?
Also, another close friend is moving to London for college in September. It just feels like I'm watching everyone around me disappearing while I'm stuck in the same place, not wanting to do anything with my life, not wanting to make anything of myself, and I want to get better!
I do want to...
But I'm so scared. I'm scared that they will try and help me, but can't... I'm scared that I am.. 'incureable'. I'm scared that my parents will find out, because let's be honest, they're not the most supportive. I'm just... I can't bring myself to go and get help... I really can't.. :sad:
Like everyone's leaving me.
I know that's silly.
I know that they're getting on with their own lives because their young and just because I don't have any hope for MY future, doesn't mean everyone else's life stands still...
But my best friend has just moved to Florida for 8 months (I live in Scotland). I've known her for 12 years, and have never gone so long without seeing her before. I'm going to miss her so much. We said our goodbyes last night and I've just been crying non-stop since. And no one else understands. They say I should be happy for her. And I am. She was given an amazing opportunity and she took it, but I just miss her, that's all...
Is that allowed?
Also, another close friend is moving to London for college in September. It just feels like I'm watching everyone around me disappearing while I'm stuck in the same place, not wanting to do anything with my life, not wanting to make anything of myself, and I want to get better!
I do want to...
But I'm so scared. I'm scared that they will try and help me, but can't... I'm scared that I am.. 'incureable'. I'm scared that my parents will find out, because let's be honest, they're not the most supportive. I'm just... I can't bring myself to go and get help... I really can't.. :sad: