Hi this is my first post. I am a 28 year old male and have had back pain since about 2003. I was in a 5 year relationship and that ended because of me not working due to pain.
I got over my partner leaving and gradually picked myself up by excersising through it and this also helped pick my mood up.
Last year I hurt my chest and have somthing called Costochondritis that is very painful. After a year the pain is still there. Just recently I have met sombody and we really want to be together and this has given me new hope to get a job and start a new life.
I want to be able to excersise and keep fit so I stay happy and I want to be able to hold down a job despite the pain. I feel deeply fustrated to the point of wanting to kill myself. I always think that I want this girl so much but a combination of my pain and my mood will make it not last. Also my confidence is very down and ive stopped going out much.
My uncle commited suicide in 2008 and I have been pacing up and down the house with all this in my head thinking I want to switch off and not feel this.
All my friends are doing well and getting married and moving into their own houses etc and im still at home with my parents. I feel I am a big weight for them to bear. They love me very much but I feel like there is no way out for me.
I hope sombody can reply to this as I have also been wondering the easiest way to leave this world.
al
I got over my partner leaving and gradually picked myself up by excersising through it and this also helped pick my mood up.
Last year I hurt my chest and have somthing called Costochondritis that is very painful. After a year the pain is still there. Just recently I have met sombody and we really want to be together and this has given me new hope to get a job and start a new life.
I want to be able to excersise and keep fit so I stay happy and I want to be able to hold down a job despite the pain. I feel deeply fustrated to the point of wanting to kill myself. I always think that I want this girl so much but a combination of my pain and my mood will make it not last. Also my confidence is very down and ive stopped going out much.
My uncle commited suicide in 2008 and I have been pacing up and down the house with all this in my head thinking I want to switch off and not feel this.
All my friends are doing well and getting married and moving into their own houses etc and im still at home with my parents. I feel I am a big weight for them to bear. They love me very much but I feel like there is no way out for me.
I hope sombody can reply to this as I have also been wondering the easiest way to leave this world.
al