All I can think of is suicide and all the options that are open for me to kill myself. It is so easy to buy lots of tabs in town. Its easy if I want to jump. I even have potent pills in my cupboard. I cannot think of anything else. Every thought in my head links to death. Even at uni I cant seem to cheer myself up. I used to laugh and joke with my friends. Now i hardly speak. I just cant. The anxiety is crippling me and my sadness is deepening and deepening. I really could just pull the plug now. I hate this. I have lost all control.