My grandmother died this spring.. Every day is getting harder for me. I don't know what I will do without her. I used to call her for everything. She lived very far away so I couldn't see her and it kills me that she kept asking me to come visit her this summer and I said no b/c I had school and didn't want to spend the money that I had . I miss her sooo much... She was always right about everything and whenever I had a problem( which i always do because im so sensitive) I just had to call her and say a few words and she would talk to me for hours and make me feel so much better with her wisdom. This was so good because often I could not express my pain but she knew exactly what i was thinking because she was psychic. There is no person in this world that can say the things she said to me. If I call my mom for anything she usually makes me madder but we do have a good relationship. She has cancer and its the second time it came back and the doctors don't know what to do because if they remove the lumps they would have to take out her kidney and she cant survive with one kidney and the chemo. I know she is going to die soon. If she dies I ( words can not describe) .. I'm so scared and upset. Now that my grandma is gone I'm scared I will go down the wrong path. She had my perfect life planned out for me and now I'm scared I will make the wrong decisions and my life won't be as foreseen. I relied on her sooo much I can't imagine making any big decisions.. I'm so lost... I would have been nothing without my grandma. From a young age she taught me so much and worked on me so much. My life was perfect all because of her. All because I listened to her.I can't even have a bf without her because everything she said about guys came out true. And many times I didn't listen to her and was sorry later. Now everything is going to go downhill..