I don't know what to do at this point. This morning I thought about going to the doctor for some XXXX so that I could overdose the same way that my mother did. Then I think about staying with my boyfriend. But he cheats on me constantly. I'm not sure I can rely on him. Then I think I should check myself into the hospital, but who will care for my dogs? I've isolated myslef from friends and family, I don't feel like there is anyone I can talk to.