feel so stupid - trying to hold on to a dream
why did i hope things would work out - such an idiot
harder and harder each day to believe any more - who am i trying to fool
little voice in my head keeps getting louder - it's over, get on with it already
finding all my old pills in my nightstand and can't stop wondering if adding them to my stash will help me in the end
just want to get dressed, sit in my car, and keep swallowing until i can't swallow any more
god i hate myself - HATE HATE HATE - wife keeps pressuring me to shave - haven't done it in months - but it's the only way to hide my face from myself in the mirror
why do i deserve to live - why do i deserve to go through this pain when i can see that i have no future anyway
feelings have been this intense for a couple of weeks now and i'm breaking - won't take much more to get that first pill past my lips
can only push these feelings off for a couple of hours at a time then they slam back worse than before
my final failure is coming, i know it - knew it was inevitable
and i know that i will be alone at the end
why did i hope things would work out - such an idiot
harder and harder each day to believe any more - who am i trying to fool
little voice in my head keeps getting louder - it's over, get on with it already
finding all my old pills in my nightstand and can't stop wondering if adding them to my stash will help me in the end
just want to get dressed, sit in my car, and keep swallowing until i can't swallow any more
god i hate myself - HATE HATE HATE - wife keeps pressuring me to shave - haven't done it in months - but it's the only way to hide my face from myself in the mirror
why do i deserve to live - why do i deserve to go through this pain when i can see that i have no future anyway
feelings have been this intense for a couple of weeks now and i'm breaking - won't take much more to get that first pill past my lips
can only push these feelings off for a couple of hours at a time then they slam back worse than before
my final failure is coming, i know it - knew it was inevitable
and i know that i will be alone at the end