Reading this forum I can see many people have clinical depression issues, but mine are practical. I have no excuse for what has happened to me. I have no life really. My job fell apart a few years ago when the recession kicked in. And most of the last two years I have been out of work.I also was in a relationship that ended at about the same time. I live in Central London. I am lucky to have saved over the years so I have a fallback, and I have survived so far on this, so the one positive thing is that I have avoided financial worries so far this way. Since everything crashed for me, I have done nothing. Too depressed move. My life has ground to a halt. Being honest I seem to spend most of the day online. looking for some kind of world to interact with, some people, some human beings that will want to interact with me, even if its just in the false world of the internet. But even that fails me sometimes. I'm just so awfully alone. I have no friends or anyone in my life. Of course his sounds self-pitying and sad, and it is, but I would love someone who has similar feelings who lives in London to acknowledge that I am not alone in place with so many people, and so little humanity. Everyone else I see looks like they have someone, so that if they feel as bad as i do they can at least phone. I have no one. Lately, after a few failed attempts to reconnect with people, and what I can only take to be complete rejection - it has made me think that I really can't go on like this. I guess I must have problems in my personality - but I have never had any help, and don't know what these problems are . The fact is that in the end no one wants to know me. These feelings have really been on and off like this for my whole life. I am just being honest and this is a cry for help, if someone can look past this and try to help me, i feel I'm at the stage where i do need help - because i am not able to go on. Even when I try to give to people I am rejected. I felt like this before when I was younger, but now I am older and life looks like it has passed me by completely. If the future is the same as my past, I will just be the old man like i am now. And I think it would be more dignified to end it. Please help.