feel that there is no hope

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by bobbob, Apr 23, 2016.

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  1. bobbob

    bobbob Well-Known Member

    Ive found this site a great support in last few weeks but I feel that my situation might be hopeless. I wont go through the details again. But basically I have developed very severe tinnitus which means that I have constant loud noises which I cant escape from for one single waking moment. I'm not young but I'm not so old and I cant really imagine a life with these constant loud noises. Family have been supportive but basically there is nothing anyone can do. I use to love life (despite usual ups and downs) before this happened. But now I have no quality of life and every moment is like torture. I feel that Im at the end of the road but dont know how to or dont have the nerve to switch the engine off. I just want it all to end. Im not suicidal by nature but I just dont think I can bear this anymore.
    Im sorry that this is so negative. I know most will get through depression and come out other side and have a happy life. And I hope that applies to all others on this site. Even as I sit here and write this I have high pitched hiss in my left ear and a kind of loud metal spinning schreceing in my right ear and other sounds chipping in now and again. I would be OK if I could have an hours break a day from the noise but that isnt posisble. I think I am literally going mad. There was so much more I wanted to do in life. I was startuing to get coverage in media for my research and getting invited to speak at events and it was all going freally well. But now i just want to sleep.
  2. ThePhantomLady

    ThePhantomLady Safety and Support SF Supporter

    I am so sorry you have to deal with this, and how desperate you are feeling.

    Have you seen specialists and seen if there is more they could do?
    If not, I know it won't help for now... but who knows what they can do in the future? Medicine is moving fast,

    Have you been to any therapy or counseling to help you deal with this?

    I know things are rough, but please don't give up!
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  3. bobbob

    bobbob Well-Known Member

    Thanks phantomlady
    Hope you are doing OK.
    Your words are kind and heartening as always. But any medication for chronic tinnitus is at least 15 years off I think and it would only help to reduce volumne. Ive tried counselling but they dont really seem to know what to say. They seemed shocked tbh at what severe tinnitus can involve! I have got my name down for specialist tinnitus counselling and maybe that will help a bit.
    Its just that I feel more worn down each day and able to do less and less. Im even finding it hard to chat in SF and I use to be one of most talkative people I know (too talkative maybe!).
    Anyhow, Ive not given up yet and dont want to but just dont know how to stop myself sliding further down. Im trying to do some work for part time phd that I was doing before tinnitus hit. But it just seems pointless. Sorry I have slipped into being negative again. I really havent given up and have family here, so maybe will be OK.
    There is no immediate danger I think. Its just I worry about next month or the month after. I think I need to turn things round somehow while I still can.
    thanks again. U do a great job here
    best wishes
  4. Brian777

    Brian777 Safety and Support SF Artist SF Supporter

    Hey Bob, I have tinnitus too, not to the extent you have but enough to understand how it can really overwhelm you. Have you spoken to your doctor about getting something to calm you down, maybe a tranquilizer or something to help you sleep, anything to give you some relief from it. I know they won't make it stop but maybe help you cope with it a little easier. It's amazing how these things effect our whole lives, I wish I had something better to suggest but this is all I can think of. It saddens me that you're going through this ordeal, let's hope medicine can come up with a permanent cure in the near future.
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  5. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    I just want to say you are a very special person and it's always nice to see you in the chat room. You bring a spark of kindness and positivity. Thank you for being you and I am sorry for what you are going through *hugs*
  6. bobbob

    bobbob Well-Known Member

    Thanks Brian. It was really nice to get your reply. and it does really help. Ive not given up yet and may kind of get use to the noises. I hope you're doing OK. Cheers mate.
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  7. bobbob

    bobbob Well-Known Member

    Thanks Petal. I am always really glad to see your name in the chat room. U do a great job there of making people feel welcome and talking things through with people. I hope that any obstacles that you are struggling with in life will soon be overcome. You deserve to be really happy.
    all the best *hugs*
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  8. sunnypseudo

    sunnypseudo Well-Known Member

    How long until you can get into tinnitus counselling? I don't suffer from that, but I understand how chronic conditions can make one lose hope. When its the only thing it seems that you can concentrate on because its louder or more encompassing than everything else its hard to even think about focusing on every day things. This is just a completely unfounded idea, but bare with me. I deal with a lot of physical pain, everywhere, and even during migraines to stimulate another sense, for me sound, is one of the more helpful things. Since yours is sound based, have you tried getting into something that will stimulate any other of your senses to relax? Focus on smells, or physical sensations that are pleasant? Maybe even try something as little as aroma therapy, or if you can a massage pad so you can lose yourself in how it feels. Like I said, completely NOT based on any researches just maybe a thought, if nothing else maybe some hope?
  9. shania

    shania Well-Known Member

    I'm sorry you're having to deal with this, bobbob.

    You might find this forum to be a helpful resource to connect with others who have tinnitus and to research the latest treatments:

  10. bobbob

    bobbob Well-Known Member

    Thanks sunny. and apologies for delay getting back. Hope u doing ok. idea of focussing on other senses is a really good one and I will defnately try it. Hope your pain eases.
    best wishes
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  11. bobbob

    bobbob Well-Known Member

    Thanks for your kind thoughts and for the info. Its really appreciated.
    best wishes
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