I feel like crap and i am fed up of this cycle. I am on meds. I have been in therapy for years. I know I will feel better again, but I also know i will crash again. This cycle has not stopped since i first became unwell in 2005. I have no life. I can’t socialise. I am finding it so difficult to focus on anything. Nothing seems enjoyable, what the hell is the point? I’ve fought for so long and now i want to give up. I just feel so bloody low. I am tempted to use self destructive behaviours to cope, even if it only helps while i am carrying out the act.