Hmmm I don't know. I have two issues today. Well three. Today I have had constant mood swings. I have gone from being ok to morbid, back to ok but restless, back to morbid, to hyper, to ok and now I am all morbid again. I had not also been seeing anything for a few days as I have been alright but today I have seen more shadows and I thought I saw a dead ginger cat lying in the middle of the road. But of course it's my mind playing tricks on me. Been hearing the cars again and bangs from outside. I am getting more and more on edge.
I have also been dwelling on things that have happened in the past. I know it does not do me well to dwell on things, but I wish I had been much stronger, less naive and not weak. It would have saved a hell of a lot of pain and suffering.
I am also worrying about fiance going home on Sunday and how I will cope. my parents also go away on holiday on Monday. It is gonna be a tough week.
I have also been dwelling on things that have happened in the past. I know it does not do me well to dwell on things, but I wish I had been much stronger, less naive and not weak. It would have saved a hell of a lot of pain and suffering.
I am also worrying about fiance going home on Sunday and how I will cope. my parents also go away on holiday on Monday. It is gonna be a tough week.