Hi, all. I just felt the need to post onight and to let myself be heard. I'm feeling so alone right now. I want to g out, but I don't want to at the same time. I just dont want to talk to anyone at the moment. I can't seem to get out of my own head. I know tomorrow is going to be tough, because I have my therapist and am working on some hard issue at the moment. But, right now I feel alone and I feel reckless. I feel like I want to put myself in some sort of danger. I don't know why, but every once in awhile I get like this. Last time this happened I spent over $200 in scratch off lottery tickets....and the time before that, well, that's when I got myself into some real trouble. So. I think I'm going to stay at home tonight. I don't know what the point of this post was, but thanks for listening.