Sorry to post again, but I was looking at someone on youtube and i feel so ashamed because she's got her shit together. she's in school and works full time and will be going to graduate school soon. and me....i have no job and i don't know when i'll be able to finish college. i had a relative a week or so ago totally pull a guilt trip on me which i guess he thought was tough love, but what he failed to realize is that im not some shallow selfish freeloader kicking my feet up all day. he wanted me to write to him....i guess a poem or a sample short story. but no, im going to give him a piece of my mind and let him know that his words offended me and that if blood is so damn important than he should have approached me in a considerate way instead of making a bunch of one sided assumptions. but still...i have my own expectations and i feel like crap for not meeting them. i really hate my life. sorry if none of this made sense.