I'm new here and I just wanted to vent. I wanna die. I barely have the energy to write this message or explain why. I have stopped visiting the doctor because I've tried several different antidepressants and none have helped. I have no one to talk to and I'm too shy and afraid to call a help line. I can't cope much longer. I worry about things constantly and being awake is just torture. I don't think I have the guts to actually kill myself but knowing it's an option, is such a relief.