feeling bad

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by _Lily_, May 21, 2011.

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  1. _Lily_

    _Lily_ Forum Buddy

    Feeling really bad tonight, was wanting to OD earlier.
    had access to the pills when my dad ( hosts husband) was at A and E with hosts nephew after he had taken an OD ( he took them before we met him today he is ok and gone home )
    But i didn't , i don't know why i didn't.
    Maybe because dad had already been up at A and E and he had enough to deal with , with that.
    I no longer have access to the pills as dad has put them somewhere else
    Am feeling bad because of flashbacks of abuse , we dont have a therapist at the moment A, because we cant afford one B, because we have trust issues and C, because we are too scared to talk about the past.
    We are trying to deal with the flashbacks the best we can.
    At the moment am feeling really scared not just me the littles and kids are really scared that the abusers are going to come back and get them ( littles and kids don't post here because this isn't really a forum for them )
    having to live through the flashbacks are so hard to deal with it just feels that we are back there again with the abusers
    i dont know what i want out of this post , maybe just some understanding
    Thanks
    Rei
     
  2. *sparkle*

    *sparkle* Staff Alumni

    Rei :hug: im sorry you aren't feeling very good. flashbacks are horrible - try and remember that they aren't real now and that you are safe. i'm here to try and understand along with other people who care here :hug:
     
  3. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Posting help you get the sadness out the pain i find it helps alot hun You keep posting okay You look around and see that the past is just that gone you are here now safe okay hugs
     
  4. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hiya, Is there an abuse or rape crisis centre where you live? Look online, you might find there's something in your area. Have you ever spoken about the abuse you suffered? It might help to talk about it.
     
  5. _Lily_

    _Lily_ Forum Buddy

    We have tried therapy before we ended up with us staring at the floor and not talking.
    or us dissociating.
    Rei
     
  6. *sparkle*

    *sparkle* Staff Alumni

    Rei :hug: nice to see you again today hun :)

    know that you can talk here right? maybe you had the wrong therapist before and could find one who you feel more comfortable with... but please try and remember the flashbacks are no longer real and you are safe talking here :arms:
     
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