id like to see if im as crazy as i think. i wouldnt call myself wanting to die a depressing feeling, ofcourse i have been, but now i just want to die for the sake of dieing. i find myself thinking about it every morning but not feeling sad. is wanting to get killed the same as killing myself? it started when i left highschool in 08, everything in my life has been down hill and this year put the cheery on top. i only feel happy watching my shadow or looking in the mirror because i feel like im someone else watching me.