I don't know what I'm looking for... Support, I suppose- since I'm here... No one else is home right now and it would be so easy for me to take it all and just go to sleep forever. The last week has been weird... I feel numb. I haven't really left my room. I haven't showered and I don't care. No one has noticed... and I don't know if I want them to notice. I just want to disappear this time. I don't want to wake up in the hospital again- I want to close my eyes and just sleep and not wake up. There's been more pressure for me to get out and 'be normal' again-- but less support. I can't do this by myself and that much is obvious. I don't even want to do it at all. I don't want to deal with being social and having friends and working... I don't want to do anything. I can't even do any decent artwork- everything turns out so shitty... It's a curse. The only one here who would miss me would be my kitty. I'm sure everyone could move on easily. I'm sorry. I shouldn't even bother posting... I don't know what I want. -__- other than to be put out of my misery.