i was doing good, was getting on with things but today i went back to the house to pick up some mail and i found my ex and the shit she cheated on me with clearing out the garage. i soooo much wanted to fly at him and rip his head off but i remained cool and just told him to get off my property, unfortunatly without a fight. i suppose i knew i would see them together sometime but it was just the unexpected shock of it, i was going fishing today but now my day is ruined. i dont feel like hurting myself over it but i just, oh i dont know, i seem to have lost my way a it if you can understand that. going for my 1st reveiw with doc about meds on friday and i may ask for a bigger dose, not sure if what i have is working that well. well, thats it, going to spend the day on my own and sort my mind out again.