I have now felt down for many weeks, have been on tablets for a few weeks after seeing the doctor because of scary thoughts that I was having. Tried talking to the person that is supposed to be there for me, my girlfriend, but she now doesn't even look me in the eyes and hardly talks to me. I have no family, lost everyone over the past 6 years, one by one, only have a 2 year old daughter, who I worship but it's not enough. Everything is getting to me, the noise, the laughter, the cries, the needs. I want to be alone but then I don't. I want to sit in a dark room, but there's no escape. I want someone to be around me and hug me all of the time, but there's no one. What is the point anymore. I have no one to turn to, and am slowly loosing the will to live. Lived my life trying to make people happy and doing the right thing even when they treated me badly but there's no one there for me now, now that I need someone. Feel like there is a weight on my chest that just won't go away. Feel tired and sleepy all of the time and the relief I get is when I'm asleep, but then wake up many times during the night and each time I wake up I feel alone and scared. What can I do to get out of this mess?