I think what stops me from ending this life, is that i can´t say goodbye to my family and friends. If I only had a physical disease and we could all get together and say goodbye. But when you want to die and commit suicide, you can´t tell anyone. It´s a thing I have to keep for myself. No one sees the fake smile, they think things a going better, but it´s worse. I try to talk about everything I want to do, but inside I can´t see how I´m going to get thru this... But all I want to do is to say goodbye.