Things have really sucked lately. I have a crumby job right now, working hard and not getting much. I really miss a girl who doesnt miss me. Starting to see that no one really gets what they want in life. Not the career, not the house, not the girl, just gotta settle and keep your mouth shut because no one gives a damn. I have been doing a fair amount of drugs right now since classes ended. sometimes some Xanax, shrooms and acid. Probably should stop soon but whatever. I do think of suicide a lot, I don't think I will act on it, but part of me still likes the idea. If anyone wants to give me advice, or yell at me for being a scumbag who needs to grow up and get his life together go ahead.