So tired of everything. I never have a relaxing moment in my mind. Thru this whole depression I have managed to try to not bring my husband and friends down with me. My best friend who has been an outlet for me I have also pushed away, by withdrawing deeper into a hole.I dont even know what to say to him anymore so I just dont answer my phone. Did text him though to tell him its not him, nothing he did. Its all me. I just feel so very strange cant explain it, other than feeling very empty inside.Just feel like Im never coming back.