I have no desire to carry on living anymore. I feel so empty. I just put on an act to my family but inside im dead. I want to die and I feel so guilty for that. I was meant to return to work today but I called in sick because I just want to kill myself. I have tried to stay in bed to keep away from hurting myself in anyway. I feel so lost and frightened and terribly alone. I feel like the dark cloud is overtaking me and my desire to fight it has gone.