I'm in a bit of a crisis situation, well not really a crisis but it feels like one. I'm an alcoholic with major depression and I drank myself stupid at the weekend and missed work today. I'm probably going to lose the job and I almost want to. I've got that horrible detox fear and anxiety and I'm worried about myself. I found myself googling about how much of the medication I am on would do the job. I don't want to die but I don't know if I can face living.