I can't shake this feeling. I am so upset and unhappy with so little hope in my life. I have a job, I have a husband and a house and a tiny support system. I SHOULD be happy. However, I am absolutely miserable beyond comprehension. Please don't send me any hatred notes about how you don't have a husband etc because that doesn't fix the problem of depression. I have plotted ways of ending my life and I can't find the "perfect method" which frustrates me. I just keep thinking about it and these thoughts seem to invade me every day. I don't have an appt with my psych till the end of November and i don't see a therapist (had a few bad experiences, one overstepped boundaries and the other just wasn't right for me). can anyone offer any suggestsions? does this go away???????